Where does the caterpillar go to become a butterfly?

Kimberley Clemonts

This is a post I wrote a long time ago. I feel it contains information that is still relevant. I hope you Enjoy! 

It seems as of late I have been coming more and more into contact with people who say they're dealing with feelings of depression and anxiety. and more often than not they express how they usually don't talk about their feelings for fear of seeming crazy. Discussion of mental health seems to rank pretty highly on the list of taboo subjects. It is something that i believe is not discussed nearly enough, especially in the black community. 
I am not expert on the subject and have no medical advice to offer. What i can tell you, however, is that if you are struggling with feelings of depression, anxiety, or any other negative forces, NOTHING IS WRONG WITH YOU and YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
In fact, the more I deal with these feeling in myself the more I have come to believe that this a necessary and important part of the journey. We must go through this darkness to reach the light. I take these feelings as a sign that the numbness that we have been conditioned our whole lives to feel is wearing off. We are waking up to the tragedies of the world. While shocking, being aware of them is the only way to fix them. 
It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.
-Jiddu Krishnamurti
With all the darkness floating around in the world today I would be more concerned if we weren't being affected by it. Besides, in the darkness is where we grow. This is where the caterpillar goes to become a butterfly.
there is a balance we must each find when dealing with this darkness of feeling it in its entirety while not identifying with it. Those feelings are not you. our purpose is to examine it within ourselves with the ultimate goal being to let it go. we also need to be vulnerable about our feelings. For me, I become so much more drowned in a feeling when I have no outlet for it whether this is talking about it to a friend or through creative pursuits. Being vulnerable about our feelings not only helps us to accept them in ourselves and heal but also creates space for others to be healed. The darkness is less scary when you don't have to go through it alone.
I have noticed a lot of people promoting this love & light, positivity movement lately. While I appreciate the sentiment (believe me, my phone is filled with screenshots of uplifting quotes for any tough situation), we must be careful not get so caught up trying to appear positive that we neglect to acknowledge and talk about negative feelings. It took me a long time for me to admit I was unhappy in. I was looking around and everyone else seemed so happy; it made me feel like something was wrong with me for not feeling that way. As I tried to understand these feelings they showed me I could not learn to control them until I acknowledged them. I also realized that I was comparing my insides to other people's outsides. We come from a collective conscious. whatever one person is feeling on the INSIDE we are ALL feeling whether we show it or not. This is why it is so important to stop comparing yourself to others. Its ok to feel sad. Its ok to feel insecure. Its ok to feel lonely. We all feel these things at some point. The key is not to stay here. These feelings are trying to show us something about ourselves and the world we have all had a hand in creating. Once we accept the feeling then we can understand it, learn from it, and finally let it go. 

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